Mamtaji [Benarji ji] , are u listening?

"it was a hectic day! i am doing my best to complete syllabus but, students! ohhh.... when they will stop bunks? "

[my inner soul asked "ohh bhumika, .... what u did as a student? ! "-

i replied to myself "come on, i accept i had bunked many classes and had aimless random life, did all[right/wrong] which i wanted to do, though i enjoyed a lot... i suffered also a lot in all ways, specially intellectually - i cdnt achieve what i deserved.... i made mistake, while building sweet memories, i should had made strong knowledge base and bright career also!-- i cant advice my students to do the same mistake which i did!" ....

my inner soul shouted " cnt u stop delivering lecture even after 6.10 ? have a break n be realistic! why dont u just mind ur own business by not advising ne1 about what to do n what not to! " ....

humm... i finished , as i felt i should! ]

"have heer's birthday this month , need to make many arrangements.. have to get 6 leaves [LWPs] this month - i wonder why all prefer to get married in december only? jan n feb also seems good for wedding!.... tomorrow keyur will go to baroda at evening to attend a reception, i will have to reach home early.... but early means ?.... ohh i will manage... i wonder- will i manage? ... ohh i forgot masi reminded me to bring vegetables while returning back today... now who will explain her at 8.30 pm at ankleshwar i will have to play "veggie hunting" for her , isn’t it better to eat maggie instead? ........."..........................

my random stream of daily thoughts was interrupted by some1... i looked back with a bit anger to find out the dare devil...

"young lady [she was older then me!] , i am surprised to find you here! if u are done wid ur fantasies , look around... u and me are the "only" female passengers traveling by this "LADIES COMPARTMENT" and i am leaving on next station!... are u traveling by this train first time? don’t u know @ the rape on a 60 years lady by gang of 6 in this so called Ladies compartment last diwali! or u think u are superwoman? "

{ PS- i was traveling by SURAT-BHARUCH SHATTEL , i hate this train but can get this only most of the time.. n Ladies compartment of this train always has few ladies n more MASIji's [Masiji=" male traveling by Ladies compartment as a hobby for fun"] }...

"ohhhhhhhhh"..

had no words to speak when looked around! 2-3 mavalis were seated in my boggy playing Imran hasmi songs loudly on their china mobiles [ooohhhh... i felt dumb.. how i cdnt heard this noise!] ... n 4-5 gunda's were roaming here n there to get attention! [i was so much engrossed in thoughts that cdnt notice i was the easy , soft n "Only available" target out there! may be earlier whenever i traveled in this compartment by this train, i had 2-3 friends around upto ankleshwar, so cdnt notice such horrible possibility! though i was aware that this train has less crowd after kosamaba most of the time, i took chance... why did i??? ]

the ANGLE Aunty was still angry on me! i thanked od for sending aunty to rescue me!

I felt SCARED! [nething cd have happened! nething... i cdnt even imagine the possibilities!]

i changed compartment at next station[kosamba] ... reached home... couldn’t stop myself from discussing the incident with keyur... though i was aware he will get mad on me!

"it happens keyur.. i was not careless. just got caught in thoughts! u know how bold i am! n u know i can defend myself well! [do i?] for god sake stop reacting like hell.. i have been commuting for last 5 years.. dont u know? n in worst case i had mobile.. i know all emergency numbers... i can shout.. i can call u dear! cant i? dont u trust me n my capabilities? " - i defended myself poorly, though i knew i was wrong! bt didn’t wanted to show ....that i was frightened!

" i do trust u, ur boldness, ur mobile, n ur knowledge of emergency numbers! but what if u dont have coverage to make call? what if u shout n there is no1 to answer? what if train has started n till it stops something went wrong with u! u cant even defend urself in front of a lizard or dog! stop playing Zansi ki rani or indira gandhi! be realistic... n accept Odds! n promise me to be awake and in full senses while traveling! if u have to choose to travel with civilized Lofar[in general compartment] n typical Gunda-mavali-drunk[in ladies compartment of shattle], For god sake select first as u can defend at that level only! " -- Keyur said with wet eyes! wet with worries!

"ok , i will.." i cdnt stop my tears! Heer couldn’t understand why PA was angry on MA.. but i cd understand!

if LADIES COMPARTMENT which is meant to provide comfort n safety to ladies is not safe.... who says " Indian Railway - Salamat[safe ] Railway" ???

MAMATAji are u listening???

[please don’t advise me to register complain to railway about such harassment.. as i have already made such many complains at surat, ankelshwar stations before months.. where while registering complains they were treating me like ............. %#@#*& ... ! ]